Friday, April 15, 2011


I have been struggling with anxiety again, and finally consulted again with my doctor. They are adjusting the medication I'm on and I go back in two weeks. I hate to admit that I'm struggling again. I thought I was over the problem, and I'm not sure what set it off.

I did learn a good tip off the internet for anxiety. You set a worry time for yourself every day, then when something starts to cause you to worry, you write it down and worry about it during your worry time. I'm finding that a lot of what I worry about doesn't happen or isn't as bad as I think. I think this is the key and will just take more practice on my part. I'm also trying to walk a mile a day and eat better.

So I went to and typed in hope. The talk I was referred to was "Hope" from Steven E. Snow, President of the Quorum of the Seventy. He said

"Hope is an emotion which brings richness to our everyday lives. It is defined as 'the feeling that … events will turn out for the best.' When we exercise hope, we 'look forward … with desire and reasonable confidence'...As such, hope brings a certain calming influence to our lives as we confidently look forward to future events.

"We should never let hope be displaced by despair. The Apostle Paul wrote that we should plow in hope' (1 Corinthians 9:10). The exercise of hope enriches our lives and helps us look forward to the future. Whether we are plowing fields to plant or plowing through life, it is imperative we, as Latter-day Saints, have hope."

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Article of Faith 13

We believe in being honest, true, chaste, benevolent, virtuous, and in doing good to all men; indeed, we may say that we follow the admonition of Paul—We believe all things, we hope all things, we have endured many things, and hope to be able to endure all things. If there is anything virtuous, lovely, or of good report or praiseworthy, we seek after these things.

This is the theme for mutual this year, and was the subject of a talk in the Young Women's meeting. I have been listening to the meeting online.

So at this point, I hope to be able to overcome anxiety problems once and for all and endure to the end.

The anxiety attacks have gotten better. There are days that I don't have the attacks in the morning, and when I do have them, they don't last as long as they did. Something I read earlier said to write down the things that are worrying you and then worry about them at a set time. I am finding that most of the things I am worried about when I first wake up have resolved themselves by the end of the day.

I hope also to be true. Steadfast, and hope for all things.

Friday, March 18, 2011


I am still struggling with the anxiety, but not nearly as much as I was. Yesterday, in fact, went fine although it was the two year anniversary of our miscarriage. I don't know how else to put it, but I felt carried by the Savior yesterday.

I have thrown myself into work, and that seems to be helping and my concentration ability is improving.

I'm grateful for a loving Heavenly Father and Savior. I'm inspired by the Japenese people and the grace we hear about during their crisis. I'm also grateful for a loving, patient husband and a wonderful daughter.

Wednesday, March 02, 2011


I've been truly blessed by Heavenly Father. Our car repair bill was only $300 instead of the $1200 we thought it was going to be. I've had other positive answers to prayers as well. I am really trying to work on faith and trust in God.

I finished the library reading program. The finisher's prizes were a Wichita Public Library mug, a packet of hot chocolate, a packet of tea (I think herb tea), a package of microwave popcorn and a $5 gift certificate to the Friends of the Library bookstore. I read books I already owned and cleared some space on my shelves.

We talked in Relief Society this week about trusting God, and I have been thinking I'm a lot like Peter figuratively. My faith starts out well, but then the stormy waters come, and I get frightened. I'm grateful the Savior is there to guide me to him.

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Anxiety and the

I'll admit it. I'm struggling with anxiety problems again. So this morning, I went to and typed "anxiety attack" in the search engine.

Here is what I found in an article by Nancy M. Christensen, "My Personal Parable for Peace", Ensign, July 2006"

The door was locked. I caught up with them, slid my key into the lock, and tried to turn the handle, but the boys were each holding it so tightly that I could not turn the key.

The words “If you would just let go for a minute, I could turn the key and let you in” tumbled out of my mouth. Almost immediately, my sons relaxed their grip. I turned the key, and we were inside the house.

As I said those words, an image popped into my mind. I imagined the Savior standing next to me, repeating my own words back to me: “If you would just let go for a minute, I could turn the key for you. Let go. Let me help.”

I had my answer. I realized that by letting go of the fear and worry, I could open myself up to the love of the Savior. My fears may or may not materialize, but when I trust in the Lord, somehow things work out for the best.

As I let go of my worries and put my trust in the Savior, I have gained a testimony that through the Atonement, our most difficult burdens can be lifted.
I am so grateful for a Heavenly Father and a Savior that love us enough to help us through all our infirmities. I am also grateful that we have an uplifting site to go to like that is available when we need it.

Monday, February 21, 2011


Yesterday I missed my sacrament meeting, so I went to the later one. The first talk was a youth speaking that spoke about David and Goliath and what Goliaths we have in our lives.

The other two talks were also about overcoming adversity. I really needed these talks, and they have made me think. I know three of my Goliaths are decouragement and depression and fear the opposites of faith.

The middle speaker shared the fact that she had miscarried and what the adversity of that had taught her. So I am redetermined to make my adversity stumbling blocks into stepping stones.

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

No Braces and Concert

This is my beautiful daughter without her braces. She had a choir concert last night along with her stepsister, Ari. They did a great job! One song that sang was about Joshua and the battle of Jericho. I can't imagine what it would be like to see the walls of a city crumble because you walked around it and then shouted. What blessings the people received for following a prophet.